it suddenly hit upon me that i havent been truly happie lately..maybe its the weather, maybe its the projects, or maybe....as it rains, i feel the tears in my eyes trickling down my cheeks. I know im weak, but sometimes i just feel like running away...i think about whom i can really talk and relate to, i think about who's there when i need them...i just keep on thinking, but it seems like i dun really have anybody...

im looking pale,feeling sick,having a breakout...i just feel fucking down..