cool!! im blossom..hahaha!! was hoping tt i was bubbles..but..nvm =P maybe meeting e gers later at gardens to study..hope my mummy allows..i miss my baby!! =*) --virtual kiss--

Only chem paper3 and phy paper5 left..seriously,i felt as if a huge burden has been lifted off my chest..=) but den again..dun think im gonna do well for e papers tt ive completed..esp math and chem..haha..GONERS~~ as for phy..i realie hope i can pass..jus an E will be enuff..realie dun wanna be in compulsory self study man..a complete waste of time!! rather stay home or go out with my dar to study lor..all i can do nw is hope and pray,coz only heaven noes wad im gonna get..

Made a damn damn damn damn damn stupid mistake due to my irresponsibility..ARGH!! i hate myself for being MISS MISPLACED-EVERYTHING..was suppose to watch a movie after our math paper..went to buy e tics at lido and my dar handed e tics to me to keep it.. den join eug,merry and bell at scotts picnic for lunch..den after tt,we headed back to lido to buy popcorn..however,to my horror..I LOST 1 TICKET!!! goddamnit..seriously..dis nv happened to me b4 la..maybe i nv kept movie tics..but how cld i ever be so so careless..it was so impt la..havent watched a movie with my dar for dunno how many donkeys years already..and was looking forward to it since last nite..F*** i was frantically searching for e lost tic..but to no avail..SIBEH SIAN uh!! realie dunno wads wrong with me la..den i got so so angry with myself..really wanted to cry..but fought hard to stop tears from forming in my eyes..i felt damn bad,my poor darling spent $20 on e tics and food lor..and its all wasted!! im realie a DUMBASS la..made my dar so disappointed..though he wasnt in e best of mood..he still managed to cheer me up after a HUGE EFFORT..i swear he is e nicest guy on earth..i mean, if he had lost e tics instead of me..i wont be toking to him for at least a few hours i think..he is able to tolerate my pettiness and carelessness and all of my other flaws..im realie thankful for him..dar..i promise i wont be so careless in e future *hugx* ----- ilu -----

In e end,we walked to forum's toys'r'us to window shop...felt so much betta..both me and my dar was amusing ourselves with e kiddy stuff there..and both of us LOVE TOYS!! *yay* as usual..i was fantasizing bout us bringing our kids there n buying toys for them and stuff to doll my little ger up..*grinx* i think im a very family sorta person..i yearn to get married..esp to e one i realie love and realie loves me..awww..aint it sweet? -giggles-

Went to meet e gers for dinner at sakae..thank you so much sweeties..u brighten up my day (or izit nite) so much!! was laughing so heartily..i realie enjoy their company,jus reminds me so much of e those days...i nv want our frenship to end..oh ya..and we took quite a few pics too..and they said i look sweet and pretty..WOW!! made me so happie la..kept grinning to myself..abit silly there but..WHO CARES?!? *ilu gers*
:+: py.lings.karen.clara.xin.sally.es.lei.jac:+:

Wad wld u do if u screwed up all ur papers for e week?

Phy prac ----- Swing swing swing,swing ur stupid head la..dumb experiment~ for wad one?
Math paper 1 ----- "If u dun get 65 for dis paper,u are lousy" (my dear math tutor *cheechee*)
And guess wad..im gonna fail it la..so wad does tt make me? AN IDIOT?!?!
Chem prac ----- How i wish i was colour blind..den i can get help for my stupid QA which i cant
even tell wad colour is e solution and ppt..DAMN IT!!

Everything is not over yet..e 'xiong' papers have yet to come..next week can jus kill me la..*ARGH* seriously..im still not getting in e mood for studying..wads wrong with me?am i jus gonna jus scrape thru everything..including my A's??? oh god..save me..time waits for nobody n here i am wasting time away by slacking,slacking and slacking..why am i crying out loud here when i shld use e precious time to do my tys?why cant i jus focus and concentrate on my work instead of playing online games?why must i be labelled as 'e dumb one' instead of 'e smart one' like our dear fren (mr vagina dick) sorrie for e crude lang..

Shall release myself from e state of depression and talk bout sumthing more light-hearted...

Went my dar's clubbie tdy at cck..quite a scenic place i mus say..den we went swimming in e play pool...quite fun~ partially submerged myself in e cooling water under e hot sun..e feeling is jus damn 'shiok' haha..and it felt as if we own e pool..coz theres nobody except us..aint tt cool mate? din realie swim..jus float ard and played piggy back..*grinx* think im quite strong..can piggy my darling and run in water..not realie run la..but still..hee..whenever im with him,i jus feel so so comfortable and relax..wanted to jus break free from e pressures of prelims and enjoy myself..hai~ but i guess im back to reality..=(

Den after e swim,rushed down to novena to meet my family for dinner at vienna's..its my mummy's bday tdy...**HAPPIE BDAY MUMMY!!** ate damn damn damn alot la..think its one of e few times i ate so much..my silly mummy eat until she wanna slp..haha! abit funny there..i love my mummy..*hugx*

Gotta go peeps...
ITS STUDY TIME!!!!

***** HaPPie 5th AnnIvERsaRy to Us!! *****

These days are going by so very fast,
yet still I can see.
I think about you more and more,
just how great you'll be.
I don't know how to feel right now,
knowing that you're not with me.
I need your love and compassion now,
but I guess I'll have to see.

I want to be your only one,
to have you here right now.
That would be what I live for,
soon I'll figure out how.
There will be a time for us,
to be together at last,
Not in dreams or in my head.
Just forget about the past.

I can't help but wonder how
you've been, so far away.
I put you through so very much,
and you always seem to stay.
I know I've been a lot to handle,
I love you more than words can say.
You're always there no matter what;
I only want to see that day.

You fill a part of me somehow
that I've never had before.
You are my world and everything else;
I could not ask for more.
I cannot say, I Love You, enough.
I wish there were something I could do
to see your face and feel your touch,
and tell you that I love you.

heys..to all those who commented on my blind-ing background..guess wad? im not gonna change it..coz its cOOL!! =P haha

[merry] thanks ger..u study hard too ya? dun get too engrossed in wanting to drive a car
[nick] sorrie..but which nick are u? *grinx*

my fren emailed dis pic to me..i think its realie cute!! haha..maybe guys realie do treat tt as toys when they were young huh?
Few hours more to e start of prelims...aint it cool,mate?
Was quite disappointed coz i cldnt join my pals at serangoon gardens for a study session
Could we have it again?

*ilu gers*

My darling was damn sweet tdy..came over to visit me in e morn..b4 my non-beneficial tuition,and he told me i was his true love..aint it cool,mate? i think true love involves sacrificing..n im able to sacrifice anything for him..tt makes him my true love too *yay!*

*ilu dear*

My Slimming Resolution

(1) No Fast Foods!! (as dolly said..it contain all e saturated fats which clogs up ur arteries..ladies and gentleman BEWARE!!)
(2) No Carbornated Drinks!! (All those sugar make swannie FAT)
(3) Eat less meals with less quantity too!!
(4) No char kway tiao,fried chicken wings etc...( im gonna miss them loads =( )
(5) Try..as in realie try doin hula hoops..( i got a figure of an "AUNTIE"!! damn )
(6) Go swimming with mummy more often and exercise with my sweetie pie

think dats abt it..i'll add on later when i chance upon any other taboos...*grinx*

Im living in a facade
Im hiding behind a mask
Wad u see, may not be wad i really am..
ESP MY BLARDY FIGURE!!
Though my parents and sum frens say i look thin..but guess wad..u peeps are WRONG!!
I have a figure of an auntie who gave birth to 3 kids..damn it!!
Looks like i realie gotta stick to my slimming resolutions or else...i may become a MONSTER!! (an obese one)
Den maybe..my dar wont want me anymore or cant carry me..oh bother bother bother..
Seriously, it seems like i got no redeeming pt bout me..and dis sucks!!
!~!~!~!~! SIAN DIAO !~!~!~!~!~!

Why does life sometimes equal
s***?
Why does life sometimes get you so mad you want to die?
Kill yourself, get it all done and have no more hurt inside,
Do you ever wish there was someone there to talk to?
Do you wish there was someone to be your life guide?
To help you through all the suffering this world brings upon you,
Someone that will listen, give you advice, help you find your way.
Do you ever feel like you’re a stray?
Do you ever feel like you have been torn apart?
Do you ever feel like someone has run away with your heart?
Do you ever feel like you’re locked up inside a cage, and can’t get out?
No one hears you no matter how loud you shout.
Do you ever wish you had some one to run to when everything has gone wrong?
A word of advice to you friend “Stay Strong.”

was jus thinking bout e rj gers who commited suicide and a fellow sn schmate who mutilated herself..i cried when i saw e slits on her writs..though i dunno her tt well..but it jus hurts me so much when i see sumbody i noe doin tt do herself..e feeling realie suck..told my mummy bout it..she looked abit upset upon hearing e story..becoz she can imagine e pain and agony tt e parents are put thru..seriously,can u imagine ur own daughter taking her life becoz of small setbacks in life..it devastating..dats why no matter wad im goin thru,i'll nv harbour e thot of commiting suicide..

most imptly, i noe tt there are pple out there who truly care for me..i noe tt i have pple whom i trust..and i noe i can tell them wadever im goin thru..my family (esp my mum),my darling who is alwix there for me when i needed him *iloveu*,my most trusted frens..i realie treasure all of u [THANK YOU] Nothing can get us down..WE MUST BE STRONG!!

i simply love dis foto alot alot..coz both my baby and i look good!! yay!! so happie..hahah..anywayx,dis was taken using my dar's fone..was quite surprised tt e foto shoot was so clear..think my baby increased e resolution..heehee! thanks to my pro photography skills too..hahah..i love u baby~ i swear nothing's gonna tear us apart and im gonna love u forever till e end of time..

Dar..really hope we'll be like e couple in e pic in a few more years time..cant wait to marry u *grinx*

I MISS CHEERLEADING SO MUCH!! =(

kept thinkin bout e old days when we had to stay back after sch for cheer prac..though i used to complain tt it was damn tiring..but i think dis is wad tt keeps e sn spirit goin..where old gers go back and help out..kinda sad tt they din have it dis yr..newaex,i was recalling e dance steps while bathing..silly rite?but dats wad pple do when they are desperate..*grinx*

i reallie miss my cheerleading pals alot..like clara,sally,xin,yoda,candice,mich foo,shenlin,maryann,gina,laurene,shuyan...not forgetting e leader of e cheerleaders..e ever vibrant SARAH~~ think ac shld realie have cheerleading la..damn sad noe!! was telling my dar how i wish i cld dance with e grp and perform for him to see..heehee~! wonder if he will be looking at other pretty,sexy gers? hmm...*ponders*

JC life sucks so so much compared to sec sch life..i feel tt theres not much to look forward to sch other den my dar of coz..besides that,nothing else seems to interest me..unlike e past..st nicks realie rawks..!! it literally brought colours to my life..actually i realie dislike being cca-less la..being called a slacker and all..i wanna be active and enthu bout sch stuff too..maybe im jus not suited for e ac culture..

Newaex,was damn relieved tt my dar din get into trouble tdy..poor colin..hope his linlin will be there for him when he needs her e most..tts e least any gf can do seriously..thanks doOooOrRrrrYyyYYy~~ u've been a great fren..oh and sSsQqUuuIiiRrTtt too..heehee..loveya gers alot!!

Nemo..daddy will alwix love u no matter wad..but for ME-mo,i noe u've been tryin to be good..but a leopard nv changes its spots ya? hahaha..so u'll still be a horny bastard to daddy..bwahahah!! love it when nemo swims all e way to amk to send daddy to sch..haha..i love e fone dar!! makes me happier..